The young nerd still in me is obsessed with Star Trek and Law and Order. The grown up, academic in me is facinated by the study of all things Jewish: sociology, text study, etc. I want someone with a reverent irreverence of the Jewish tradition and is willing to laugh and how some of our great traditions came to be while at the same time respecting the decisions of the rabbis today.At the same time, I live in a world that is more than just Judaism. As a public school teacher in low-income Philadelphia, I struggle with the ideas of justice and righteousness. I struggle to discover how to treat young people, feeling as if I am still a young person myself. I struggle every day to reach my students, constantly exhausted and unsure of myself. I struggle to find what Judaism says to me about it, knowing that at the end of a long week, shabbat will be there and I will greet it with open arms and an uplifting song.