I look to find hidden things in the Torah, and am writing a book of things I find. . This includes remez (often hints of history going to repeat itself later on), gematria (number patterns) and (less deep) Kabballah. People of different backgrounds have been encouraging. It seems they dont know of anyone else doing this sort of thing today.
Notwithstanding my studying, I feel good middot are more important than intelligence, especially kindness and honesty. My parents went to the largest grocery in Boro Park, and they were told they were their best customers ostensibly most honest, reliable, and considerate. Over the past few years, a mitzvah somehow came to me where I am providing a lot of support for a man with a disability, who has been residing in my apartment.
I dont really fit into any one derech. I might say my derech is derech Hashem. I am more modern and liberal when it comes to things like transparancy and open-mindedness. I find that for me, Kabballah is consistent with a broader world view, because it shows things are often not what they appear, and many things and people are valuable in ways that are not overtly apparent. It also emphasizes tikkun olam, which happens not just through mitzvahs internal to the community, but also through engaging the outside world. It impacts what I consider to be most important in my job, as well.
I want to have children and spend a lot of time with them, as my parents did with me. I have a Ph.D in psychology and work as a management consultant to the head of a smaller NYC agency. My work situation is such that I am now more open to reolcation than before. Much of my income comes from a NYC pension, and my part-time consultant schedule can be flexible.