I've been thinking quite a bit about time for the last few years. Time is funny in that if you are absolutely and completely in the present, you lose your sense of time. By "in the present" I mean what Csikszentmihalyi calls "flow". It reminds me that time is just a construct or paradigm or description that we have created.
To the outside observer, I might be seen as something of a paradox. Since I appreciate paradox philosophically and in life overall, I'm glad to be there. I'm a jazz and rock musician, but I'm for the most part cerebral. I'm a physician and tend to think and theorize more than most, but I am now practicing and teaching mindfulness/meditati on, so I should really say that I am thinking less and less than most.
I am raising two teenage daughters who remind me that life is a journey, and who are central to my life and heart. My family all live nearby, and I am grateful for this. I would like to share that I have a big heart, and that there is a lovely space in the center reserved for a partner.
I am lucky and grateful to be able to live the way I do. In an ongoing process of simplifying my life, I retired from medicine four years ago. I was then able to focus more on my kids and, at that time, music. I don't have any regrets, and I love the path I am on. I have been a musician all my life. Eight years ago, after a (too) long hiatus, I suddenly found myself writing songs for the first time. For 4-5 years I played solo and in rock and fusion bands.
In following my instincts, I scaled way back on the bands over the last couple years to the point where I now only play with one or the other of the bands every few months. The creative space that I cleared opened the door to an art that I am finding allows me an even greater connection with myself, with other performers, and with audiences. I had for years been wanting to take an acting class, and finally had the opportunity this past fall. Now I have taken 5 classes, I've been the lead in a short film, and I have just auditioned for an intensive year-long acting program to start in September, 2013. I love it, and it's interesting that an important element of acting is seeing the opposites in characters--seeing both the black and the white at the same time, thus fitting in well with my general life view.
Lastly, I'm helping a friend get her cookie business off the ground, so am keeping grounded in the real world as I explore it's more esoteric aspects.
I am seeking a man who has read my profile. If you email me please include something specific. I get a lot of emails that seem heartfelt but also seem suspiciously cut-and-paste'y.