First and foremost, I think life is what you make of it. You have no control over what happens to you, but you can control how you react to it. Like everyone else, I've had ups and downs. I have been married twice, once for 15 years and again for 19 years, and when the marriages ended I thought I would die, but I didn't. I was a professional soldier and have had friends killed, which always is shocking, and have lost loved ones over my life, but nothing hurt like getting divorced from someone you adored. Nothing is so bad that it won't end, and there is always a rainbow at the end of every storm, followed by sunshine. Life is filled with valleys and peaks, but when you learn to endure the valleys, life looks so much grander from the peaks, and there are more peaks than valleys. I want to meet the girl of my dreams and share the rest of my life with her, but at the same time, I have a saying, "It's better to be alone than to wish you were." It has to be the right person, and I don't see anything to be gained by pretending there is chemistry if it doesn't exist. I realize that you can't always tell if there is the potential for magic in a relationship the first couple of times you meet, but I do think you can tell if there isn't, and there is nothing to be accomplished by pretending there is, just to be with someone; so, you can always be assured I won't lead you on just to have a relationship.