Retirement

by JeremySpoke under Date Night,Single Life

I went on the last date of my life last night. That is usually the sentence of somebody that just found the love of their life, or somebody that decided to actually do something with their life like serve in the military. I said it, however, because I am tired of trying my damn best to only get abandoned an hour in.

I think I’m a pretty good looking guy, and I also have a pretty good personality. I just don’t know how to be on a date. I just don’t. After a good amount of failures, I realized that I was too excitable. So then, I toned it down, but I think I was still smiling too much. She would tell me about her brother with cancer, and I would continue smiling and shaking my head like an idiot. People generally like people that are happy, but you have to be able to also convey other emotions appropriate to the situation. So I finally managed to not wildly scream and flail my hands the whole time, but I was still too damn happy, trying way too hard to be likable.

But girls don’t like likable guys. They like assholes, and I’m not one. I spend my whole life pretending to be happy. That is, while around other people. In my car, or in my room, I’m the angriest person on the planet. At work, however, or on a date, I’m the happiest. I think I need to find a medium, but it doesn’t really matter because I’m not going out on another date. At least not in the near future. I need confidence, and I’m not going to get that by constantly watching women in front of me make excuses for why they have to leave. I need to do things that I’m good at, like being early to things or parallel parking.

I’m really good at parallel parking. A great date for me would be just driving back and forth in and out of a parallel parking-style spot while the date is in the passenger’s seat. I wouldn’t talk, because that never works out for me. I also won’t have any music on, because I have a horrible taste in music. Just me, and her, parallel parking. I am just now realizing while writing this that this can be construed as a sexual metaphor. It’s not. It’s really the only thing I’m good at, and I thought writing this paragraph combining parallel parking and dating would be funny. It’s not. I don’t care.


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